Rewind about 2 years when I was still pregnant, and I had the perfect vision for child care -- I was going to commute with child in tow to work via the bus, take him/her across the street to daycare (where I could join him or her to nurse throughout the day) and then we would commute home together on the bus and life would be blissful. I watched another mom/daughter pair do this, and I was just convinced! I somehow forgot about the long bus trip and the aweful windstorms in the winter!
Then a few weeks into my maternity leave I called the childcare facility and learned that every woman under the sun had a baby when I did and there were absolutely no spots downtown. What?!?! I searched desperately for a new place -- on the Eastside. I toured one facility and had that "not in my lifetime" feeling in my gut. It felt like a baby mill.
Then, with the recommendation from my mom, I looked for a church childcare facility, and I found
The Ark. I enjoyed talking on the phone with the assistant director. When I toured the facility, it just felt right. I can't explain how I knew, but I just felt that Colin would be just fine there for 3 1/2 days a week. I had this same assurance when I toured Baylor University many years ago -- I just knew it was where God wanted me to be. This kind of assurance and peace is something over my life that I've learned is an assurance from the Lord that I am on the path he has chosen for me. And now, for me and my family!
This time last September , I cried as I packed his bag for his first day of "school." I had ironed nametag labels into all of his extra clothing, and I had everything set. My mind knew he was going to be cared for by a woman with a huge heart and lots of love for my son, but letting go with my heart was SOOO hard. It also meant that I was returning to work (with a new boss and a new employee reporting to me, at that!)
The first day I picked Colin up, "Miss A" was playing a CD of Phantom of the Opera, and it warmed my heart somehow -- that was one of my favorite shows (though I slept partly through it when I was in NYC when I was in the 8th grade -- a whole other blog topic!)
The timing of taking Colin back to daycare coincided with many other sleep and nursing challenges, and there were days I was gleeful to take him in at 7:01 am. Just being honest, but "Miss A" was a life raft for me as a mom. Those first months were so tough, and the thought of taking Colin to someone else so I could recharge was pure bliss! I love him, but "Miss A" had the patience to see me through a very tough time. A time when I needed to learn how to be a mom and learn from her things like, "Oh, he needs a stage 2 bottle nipple, " or "Oh, his nails really DO need a trim so he won't keep scratching all of us!"
And the time came in December that I knew I needed to be home full time with Colin. As I wrote my resignation, I knew this was God's will -- that I stay home full time with Colin. I knew with clarity that was beyond a doubt. God has given me such peace and clarity about this decision that I praise Him for this peace of mind.
I didn't know when I was pregnant that I needed to be praying for such an awesome childcare center -- and yet I ended up with an awesome place with people that love him. And we gleaned another blessing from all of this.
Colin's afternoon teacher, "Miss J," was/is a special friend to me. She was there when I would pick Colin up after a frazzled, crazy day of work. And she could 'read me like a book" when I was just totally spent. She later offered to care for Colin when her schedule allowed.
And at Colin's 1st birthday, he was SOOO excited to see "Miss J!" He just loves and adores her, and we do, too. We didn't know to be praying for a special person to love and care for our son, yet God sent 2 women who love and adore him. Like the love from our Father, who loves and adore us.
Praise be to God for The Ark that kept me afloat during a rough storms of parenting, and praise for "Miss J" who was able to be with Colin tonight while Mommy was out at a meeting.
God takes care of things we don't know that we even need to be praying for. I didn't know I needed to be praying for his daycare situation; I didn't know that I needed to be praying for a woman who would love Colin and come care for him from time to time so mom and dad could have date night. Thank you Lord, for taking such good care of us and our son.